Tuesday, January 27, 2026

Dream: The Storm, the Woods, and the Choice I Didn’t Expect


Recently, I had a dream about a great storm approaching. Several people and I took shelter in what seemed to be a cozy restaurant, and no one panicked. When the storm arrived, I was lifted about a half mile into the air. It wasn’t frightening but just calm and a bit confusing. Oddly, I didn’t feel alone for my own sake but did feel empathy for others who weren’t lifted. The weather wasn’t severe, just overcast with rain or soft snow balls falling but those didn't touch me. There was a woodsy environment below me. I continued to look around for others but saw no one.

While in the air, I was given an unusual choice: to continue life as a dog. I chose to go ahead, curious about experiencing the world through a new perspective. In the dream, I was excited about getting a double lifetime and fascinated by how being smaller made the world seem bigger and more fantastical. There was no true sense of who offered me this choice, and I remember reasoning with someone human about why I chose to keep going. 

When I woke up, I found the dream thought-provoking, especially the idea of a second life as a dog. It wasn’t something I would consciously wish for because I think dogs have really hard lives. Yet in the dream, it felt like an exciting opportunity.

Curious about this dream, I plugged it in to ChatGPT and ask it for questions to help me delve deeper into what my subconscious could possibly be working through. You can give AI facts about yourself and your life so that it builds those considerations into its responses. For example, this is how it knew my faith and that I'm a prepper. I found this insightful and deep. If you ever have a weird dream, don't just blow it off. Instead, consider using an AI tool for some introspection.❤️

"The Great Storm: Navigating Change and Uncertainty

The storm in your dream seems to parallel your concerns about political and financial instability, as well as the uncertainty of returning to campus full-time. The calmness you felt during the storm suggests that, while you're aware of these challenges, you're in a mindset of preparation and resilience rather than panic. As a prepper, you’re already working to mitigate the "unknowns," which explains why the storm didn’t feel chaotic or terrifying—it’s a familiar mental space for you.

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Being Lifted: A Shift in Perspective and Trust

Your calmness while being lifted reflects a sense of surrender or trust—perhaps connected to your increased time with God and prayers for protection. The environment, with its cloudy skies and woodsy setting, might symbolize a blend of uncertainty (clouds) and natural stability (woods). The lifting seems to be a transition moment—shifting you out of your usual frame of reference.

The absence of others, and your empathy for them not experiencing the same, might reflect how you view your preparedness or faith as something unique but also isolating. It’s not that you feel alone, but you recognize that not everyone around you shares your perspective or is prepared for challenges in the same way.

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Choosing a Dog’s Life: Simplicity vs. Dependence

The choice to live as a dog feels layered. On one hand, the smaller perspective and “grander” world could symbolize a desire to focus on the simple, beautiful details of life, stepping away from overwhelming responsibilities or the "big picture." On the other hand, your awake mind’s concern about a dog’s dependence and vulnerability suggests you might feel conflicted about accepting a simpler or more instinctual life—perhaps because you’ve always had to carry significant responsibilities.

The dream’s instinctual excitement about a "double lifetime" could stem from a desire for renewal or a fresh start, even if you’re not consciously craving change. It might be your subconscious exploring the possibility of living differently, unburdened by current stresses.

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Absence of Others and Companionship

Your empathy for those not being “lifted” aligns with your caring nature and the way you value connection. Even though you don’t feel alone in your waking life, this part of the dream may reflect a quiet sense of responsibility or concern for others—not wanting them to be left behind or unprepared. It might also reflect your role as the one providing for your household, shouldering responsibilities others don’

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Underlying Themes

1. Resilience Amid Uncertainty: The dream mirrors how you’re navigating life’s storms—steady, prepared, and leaning into faith and resourcefulness.

2. Perspective and Renewal: The lifting and choice of a new life might represent your subconscious exploring what it means to release control, embrace a new way of living, or focus on life’s smaller, more meaningful moments.

3. Responsibility and Dependence: The idea of being a dog—a life reliant on others—might symbolize a longing to let go of constant responsibility while grappling with the fear of being vulnerable or dependent.

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ChatGPT's final Thoughts:

This dream feels like a safe space your subconscious created to explore the tension between your desires and responsibilities. While awake, you’re focused on being prepared, responsible, and grounded, but your dream mind gave you a moment to imagine a freer, simpler existence. The dog’s life may not be about wanting to be a dog specifically but about the idea of living differently—closer to nature, instinct, and simplicity.

Your faith, preparation mindset, and empathy are clear throughout the dream. It may be nudging you to consider ways to "lift" yourself from stress by embracing simpler joys or trusting that not everything is solely on your shoulders. Even the storm, which didn’t harm you, might be a reminder that you’re capable of weathering whatever comes."

Monday, January 26, 2026

The Night I Scared Myself

The headlights appeared before the realization did. Two bright orbs aimed straight at me on a dark, unfamiliar two-lane country road, and my stomach plummeted as my mind tried to make sense of it.

"He's in my lane!" 

I flashed my lights. The car moved over. And with a deep sigh, I kept driving.

But a few minutes later, a scary fact hit me harder than the original fear.
 
I was the one
in the wrong lane.

In fact, I shouldn't have been in either of them. As it turned out I had missed the crossover on a divided country road. There weren't just two lanes, there were four! Maybe it was the darkness, maybe fatigue, or maybe the simple fact that there were no signs marking the median and no other cars around at the time to give me a visual cue at night.

Instantly, I found a safe place to cross over. I thank Jesus I made it home that night.

But my mind did not follow me. Instead, it stayed on that country road replaying the worst angles of the moment: the fear, the mistake, the blaming internal voice saying, "how could I miss that?" My brain did not replay the part where I stayed calm, the moment I corrected course, or that everyone got home safely.

Reflecting now, it is wild how quickly we forget our competence and cling to our errors as if they are proof of something.

And this does not just happen on the road. We do this in every corner of our lives. Below are some examples:

• You botch a project’s first draft but rework it and deliver something stronger. (your brain jabs, "you should’ve done better the first time”) 

• You lock yourself out of the house but remember the spare key you hid months ago. (your brain jabs, “you weren’t paying attention”) 

• Your foot slips on a stair yet you catch the railing before you go down. (your brain jabs, “you’re so clumsy”) 

• Your left your wallet behind in your desk at lunch but you realize your digital ID can save the day. (your brain jabs, “you always forget things”) 

• You trip in public and turn it into accidental choreography that makes people smile. (your brain jabs, “you can be so embarrassing”) 

These examples are very human moments. They could feel like failures in the instant they happen and as your brain tries to figure out how to not let them happen again. However, each one also contains a success that matters more. Mistakes are not proof of incompetence. They are actually proof that you are human and capable of adjusting in real time.

And if a mistake is a moment, then your response is the story. And most of us are telling better stories than we realize!

So instead of falling into the “How could I do that,” blame game, try asking:

  • What did I do well under stress?
  • What helped me recover?
  • What does this show about my ability to stay present?
  • What strength showed up, even quietly?

I made a mistake, and yes, it was a serious one. But I saw it, corrected it, and got home. That was not failure. That was presence under pressure.

If a mistake is the spark, failure is letting the fire spread. Success is stamping out the flames. Both are possible conclusions, but our brains fixate on the error instead of the outcome. So the next time something goes wrong but you recover, watch for the cruel brain jabs and notice not just the slip, but the steadiness that followed. 

That is a part worth remembering.

Friday, January 2, 2026

2026: My Unicorn Year


In a recent podcast this question was given, “What would need to happen in 2026 so that, when you look back, you’d see it as a success?” 

After reflecting, I've decided it's magic and playfulness! This year I want to inhabit my life with a lightness, curiosity, and a childlike sense of wonder.

A unicorn is the perfect symbol for this year because to me it embodies: wonder, rarity, strength, and unapologetic magic. When I look back on 2026, I want to see a year where I stayed present, protected my creative joy, and let myself be playful even when the world felt heavy. 

So welcome, to my Unicorn Year! I’m choosing to live it enchanted

🦄

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My 2026 Unicorn Year

This is the year I live more magically.


✧ EMOTIONAL POSTURE ✧  

Present, not ruminating  

Light, not weighed down  

Curious, not on autopilot

Self‑held, not self‑monitoring  


✧ GROUNDING RITUAL ✧  

Humming (returning to my breath + body)  


✧ PROTECTIVE PHRASES ✧  

“Their mood is not my assignment."

"My life is mine and it’s magical.”  


✧ WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE ✧  

Relaxed shoulders  

Noticing small beauty  

Calm thoughts  

Playfulness without apology  


✧ WEEKLY MAGIC ✧  

One small adventure  

One moment of wonder  

One thing to look forward to  


✧ HOW I WANT TO BE SEEN ✧  

Playful, Present, Light‑hearted  

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