|Passion flower in my backyard garden|
“Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!"
It has taken several days to overcome the sleep study. My appointment was at 9pm yet they didn't get me hooked up and down for the night until 11pm! Imagine sleeping tangled in a spider's web with a coffee straw poking out of your mouth and two other ends sticking up your nose and that would provide a small idea of what it was like that night. I had a lot of trouble getting comfortable and woke up several times just because I was tangled and the nurse had to come in to reattach the equipment. She woke me between 4:15-4:30am and had me out the door driving home at 5am. So at least I was able to get a little sleep and hopefully they got what they needed. I've not heard any results yet.
Despite my best efforts, I had to take a sick day at work the next day and have slept the majority of the last three days. However, I'm finally beginning to feel 'caught up' in my sleep. My next study is in 3 days. *sigh* I'm praying they can provide answers and solutions! So what am I learning?
This cute little bird was enjoying the ripening figs on my monsterous fig tree this morning. Tons of birds have been flocking there and this was my signal that the figs were ready. Matthew 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" As I searched the tree for my own figs, I saw that not only birds but also butterflys were enjoying them too. Jehovah-Jireh means "The Lord will provide" (Genesis 22:14) and this has been echoing in my ears as I pray lately. It is so fitting right now because I have so many questions.
"Lord, what is making me so sick? How can I get healthier? This has been keeping me from church, friends, work and I miss feeling like I use to...why am I going through this? How can I afford all these medical expenses on top of everything else demanding my time and money?" The resounding answer..."My daughter, the Lord will provide."
So today, I'm resting in that fact. This morning as I continued to sit on the back porch, I soaked in the deep truth that the Lord provides...to me and to everything around me!
|My homemade FIG milkshake :)|